dragged

still drunk from yesterday
teary eyes and lifeless
lying alone in the bed
vodka running in my veins
i couldnt care less
watching myself suffer
nothing could make me better
even when i stared blankly
you came into the picture
one that gave me freedom
allowed me to have love
and showed me a perfect life
but when you walked out on me
you dragged them along
took everything from me
left me without an armour
to defence this heartache
to pull myself back together
you decided to show me pain
you dragged all away
hoping the worst for me...

sleeping dead

in all those years

i have fear

one day you'll walk out

now it is clear

each time you are near

i cant feel you here

and i am scared

i have tears

time is running short

you starting to fade

is hurting my head

cant go ahead

sleep on my bed

lying in the cold

wind howling my soul

no one i can hold

i am better off dead

there is nothing more.......

leave a message

i am not going to wake up crying again
i am not waking up to heartache over you again
i am not going to think is the end of the world again
no more "all by myself" on the background again,

i open my eyes staring right at the ceiling
i think i got a brilliant idea
i am going to give the cunt a call
and probably give a good yelling

i pick up my phone while lying in bed
i dial the number that i hope i wont dial again
i am so ready once the stupid ring tone finish
but fuck, it went to the voice mail

I JUST GO BLANK.....(krik krik krik)
I JUST HATE IT WHEN THAT WOMAN ASK ME TO LEAVE A MESSAGE

emotionally handicapped

my desperate bid
to fall in love once again is burning
oh it scares me deep

to open this heart thats been lonely

i once gave my heart away

life was so beautiful as days went by

but when the lover swayed

and hurt to know i was betrayed

something about the whole thing

just numb me completely

i became incapable of loving

emotionally handicapped

too proud to admit i am lonely

to admit i just want to love and to be loved

i do wonder if you ever feel sorry

for lying and misleading

obviously no, you are always right

after all i was young and stupid

i have been alone far far too long

it scares me to fall in love again

will i be able to be someone's someone

and will not be hurt and betrayed