live forever

four walls are closing in
find it hard to breathe
as the light starts to dim
i'd dance in my dream
it's such a beauty
it's such a joy
rise from the grey sea
to the tranquil night sky
rest among wishing stars
as i look down far far away
for familiar faces i've kissed
for familiar hearts i've touched
for familiar souls i've loved
i wonder if they miss me
if i secure a place in their heart
if they carry me in their memory
as i continue to live forever..............in their life

la la land

last night, struggling to sleep
not the babel of midnight traffic
nor the late night black coffee
but of words that haunt me like a song
unremorsefully evoke my sorrow
he concluded that i am building castle in the air
it did make me wonder through till 3 in the morning
continuosly scratching my skull
is that what i've been living off?
my philosophies in life are my foundation
as i flaunted them full of passion
hoping he would be impressed
perhaps he would like me
but it was merely a joke to him
that cracked him up hysterically
as if i go around in la la land
living in a deluded colourful world
not surprised he didnt ask for my number
as he sarcastically said, thanks for the chat

is it worth it?

we are flying high

soaring in the sky

beyond our wildest dream

and we will never stop

dont know where we end up

is it really worth it?

we are running fast

chasing shooting stars

we know is impossible

but we are still running

still chasing uncertainties

is it really worth it?

we are wasting time

frittering away our youth

for the unreachable

but we keep believing

the moment will set in

is it really worth it?

we are living a lie

convinced we doing it right

savouring our highest point

and we keep avoiding

reality that bites deep

is it really worth it?

lonely road home

there we were, a crossroad
she demanded an aswer
where do we go from here?
head down, i stayed silence
distant intention to reply
what's the point?

she had precisely concluded which way to take
she could go on believing her stars were bright on the other side
but mine has always been above my home
there she was in my red cadillac
sped off along the highway
as for me, i walked the road i know best
all alone along the lonely road home

weeds from yesterday

staring at the ceiling

morning coffee in my hand

conversation with a gecko

it probably thinks i am mad

i then turn to my sunflower

it seems to smile at me

thought that is a bit freaky

maybe i should ignore it

channel my eyes to the tele

hoping for something interesting

nothing but a horribly repulsive face on it

oh fuck.....that is me staring back at me

standing cluelessly like a stone

i should be at somewhere now, but where?

double fuck....is Monday and supposed to be in at work

shit! something must be wrong with me

nominate myself to be a nurse

thermometer beneath my tounge

starting to count up to 23

well, i am healthy as ........(whatever identifies with healthy)

what could be possibly wrong?!!!!

ahhhh now i know, wow i dont believe it,

those weeds yesterday must be one hell of weeds!!!

wonder if i still have any left.......

if i was far away

if i was to cry
to cry alone far away
i wish you wont try, tell me i'm fine, it will be alright

if i was to run
to run somewhere far away
i wish you wont be right behind me calling my name

if i was to hide
to hide at corners far away
i wish you wont be frantically searching edges of the world

if i was to die
to die alone far away
i wish you wont be foolish thinking, have me in your arms again

...and he will always be

Here is the story of a boy
He is in love and he will always be

His obsession with his past
Blinded him and he will always be

He refuses to accept the end
In denial and he will always be

His inability to move on
Trapped within and he will always be

He rejects anyone that comes along
Foolishly waiting and he will always be

His only wish is to see him again
Optimistic and he will always be

He knows he is the only one
Believes in it and he will always be

He says there is still glimpse of hope
Lying to himself and he will always be

He willingly murders his future
Marring his life and he will always be

That is the story of the boy
He is in love and he will always be