goodbye

it seems like yesterday when we first met
i was running away
somehow i ran into you
in crowd of thousands in a big city
it was fate
i didnt know who you were
strange thing was i knew i should follow you
my gut feeling told me you'd show me
a whole new dimension i never knew
you'd bring a change in my life
when you asked me to come with you
i grabbed your arm and we ran
you took me on a journey of lifetime
a journey beyond my wildest dreams
one that changes my life
one that shows what a great person i can become
one that defines who i am today
one that gives me a reason to stand here
i cant imagine life without the journey we had
most importantly, i cant imagine one day you left
circumstances beyond our control
we had to go different ways
and never see each other again
a difficult choice you had to make
so that i can go on and live on
to leave you alone wandering away
thats the day i think i died

dragged

still drunk from yesterday
teary eyes and lifeless
lying alone in the bed
vodka running in my veins
i couldnt care less
watching myself suffer
nothing could make me better
even when i stared blankly
you came into the picture
one that gave me freedom
allowed me to have love
and showed me a perfect life
but when you walked out on me
you dragged them along
took everything from me
left me without an armour
to defence this heartache
to pull myself back together
you decided to show me pain
you dragged all away
hoping the worst for me...

sleeping dead

in all those years

i have fear

one day you'll walk out

now it is clear

each time you are near

i cant feel you here

and i am scared

i have tears

time is running short

you starting to fade

is hurting my head

cant go ahead

sleep on my bed

lying in the cold

wind howling my soul

no one i can hold

i am better off dead

there is nothing more.......

leave a message

i am not going to wake up crying again
i am not waking up to heartache over you again
i am not going to think is the end of the world again
no more "all by myself" on the background again,

i open my eyes staring right at the ceiling
i think i got a brilliant idea
i am going to give the cunt a call
and probably give a good yelling

i pick up my phone while lying in bed
i dial the number that i hope i wont dial again
i am so ready once the stupid ring tone finish
but fuck, it went to the voice mail

I JUST GO BLANK.....(krik krik krik)
I JUST HATE IT WHEN THAT WOMAN ASK ME TO LEAVE A MESSAGE

emotionally handicapped

my desperate bid
to fall in love once again is burning
oh it scares me deep

to open this heart thats been lonely

i once gave my heart away

life was so beautiful as days went by

but when the lover swayed

and hurt to know i was betrayed

something about the whole thing

just numb me completely

i became incapable of loving

emotionally handicapped

too proud to admit i am lonely

to admit i just want to love and to be loved

i do wonder if you ever feel sorry

for lying and misleading

obviously no, you are always right

after all i was young and stupid

i have been alone far far too long

it scares me to fall in love again

will i be able to be someone's someone

and will not be hurt and betrayed

gone

you gone, you gone,
you left me to another beautiful place
you gone, you gone
you left me, i miss your beautiful face

and i still remember the laughter
you brought into our life
and i still remember the love song
you sang every night

now i wont be able to see your smile
in the morning next to me
now i wont be able to say i love you
before i go to sleep

i cry, i cry
i miss you tonight and it cuts deep inside
i cry, i cry
and i try to forget you but it doesnt feel right

you gone, you gone,
now that you are not here....
i dont want to be here

last one on the house

double scotch on the rocks
listening to the ticking of the clock
this is my sixth
beginning to feel sick

you said half past nine
for a bottle of wine
is now past midnight
finished ten marlboro light

doubt it you will show up
stood up written on me head
i should have known better
you'd rather die than be seen with me
thats what i told the barman
he felt sorry for me
the last one on the house